wiltedflower, I understand how you feel. I love my 2 nieces to death, as well as my brother, but when with them recently I felt like I just couldn't connect. The depression leaves me with little to say, and it's impossible to enjoy smiles and laughter with them. I feel like everyone's in a world that I'm not a part of, so it makes it hard to feel I'm on the same page as anyone or have a true connection.