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I have pretty much suspended therapy for various reasons, but am planning a one-off appointment for sometime next month.
Part of the motive for this is so I can discuss something that happened six months into therapy during the single hypnosis session I underwent there, which I didn't bring up before as I didn't want to make things needlessly uncomfortable. At the time I told my (male) therapist (after he asked) that being hypnotised merely felt like meditating, but I couldn't 100% relax, pretending I didn't know why that was. The reason was actually because, despite being 100% sure he wasn't a pervert therapist (not an assumption I'd automatically make, I assure you), I couldn't erase the fear that he might sexually assault me if I let my guard down. I think this would happen with any male therapist where there was even the slightest concern he might be attracted to me.
Does anyone think this is a bad idea to bring this up even now that I am winding it down with this therapist, even if I make it very clear that I do so to potentially gain illuminating insight about myself and how it relates to the issues we'd already discussed, rather than as a commentary on him?
I can safely deduce that whatever my conscious mind says, I clearly don't 100% trust my therapist to not be a pervert, but I'm still sure this is about me not him.
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