I know, I know. Depression.

Things have actually been going pretty well, having some work successes which is really gratifying. But today's Monday and I haven't done a thing on my online business. I feel really horrible, and I did my moodscore- it was 15%, the lowest I've ever gotten. I'm not sleeping and I'm having a hard time taking my pills or eating well(or at all sometimes)- I'm getting that thing where I just can't bring myself to do anything, no matter how much I know I'll enjoy it. I did apply for food stamps last night, and I was able to pick up the phone when people called today, so I made appointments- that is something I've struggled with big time in the past.

I'm all dressed to walk on my treadmill- well, true, I AM wearing a six year old's sock on one foot, but that's just between you and me, okay?- but my kitten is cuddling on my lap, and honestly, it makes me feel so loved that I can't bring myself to make her get off. I just.. I wanted to do something today. Not that hard. I'm surprised I've done as much as I have. I just know I'm going downhill.