I'm so confused.

I have genuine, loving feelings for my therapist. He's been amazing. But lately I've been growing increasingly angry with him and I don't get it! My feelings of anger don't align with why I'm angry. I'm mostly upset because I feel like he's been avoiding topics I've emailed about but I know in reality it's a lack of time. Second, I think I'm mad because I ache to feel countertranference from him and I simply don't. I know this is childish! He's super ethical and I have so much respect for him in regards to that but I'm still angry I'm not a "special snowflake" to him like he is to me. Lastly, I'm frustrated with the skewed power dynamic. He sets the time, starts and ends sessions, veers topics as he sees fit, etc.

I emailed him telling him I have angry feelings towards him I don't understand and he says we should definitely talk about it next time. Sigh. Should be a blast!