I have a lot of experience googling my current T. I've always tried to find information about people without asking them. This goes back to childhood. It's probably about wanting to know so I can feel connected to them. I felt guilty for googling my T and told her about it. She was fine with it, and asked what I found. I got embarrassed because there is some personal information about her family. I got jealous of her when I found something about her artwork.

My t knows googling her makes me feel worse so I agreed not to do it. Facebook was a worse problem. I found her kids' and his pages and couldn't help looking. She didn't use to have a page but got one about a year ago. I got triggered by it so I don't look anymore. It just makes me feel totally left out and depressed, and jealous. We talked about that too.

Someone posted that a T will terminate if you look up where they live and drive by. I did that with 2 Ts and neither terminated me. I felt so guilty but I did it anyway. My current T didn't like that I drove past her house. I still don't totally understand because 2 of myTs worked out of their home. I started one of the longest threads or maybe most triggering for people about it. My urge to see where T lived (twice because she moved), was too intense. I should have talked about it with her instead of doing it. I told her I was sorry many times but I'm not sure it's resolved. My T doesn't judge behavior, just wants us to be curious about it. Now that I feel this secure attachment like she's with me all the time I don't have those urges. She also says if I want to know something about her, just ask!