I'm so sorry you feel you have to cut yourself, especially, the need to hurt yourself so bad. I used to self harm, so I understand the need for relief. I hope you are able to deal with the emotions in a different way. Please be careful.
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Bipolar I, Depression, GAD Meds: Zoloft, Zyprexa, Ritalin
"Each morning we are born again. What we do today is what matters most." -Buddha