I get really intense anxiety related to my health when I'm in bed at night. It seems like that's the one place where there's nothing distracting me from my thoughts. I have a big fear of having a seizure, irrational because there's no reason I'd be prone to one, but all I can think of at night, with every lurch of my heart or dizzy feeling in my head, is that I'm going to have a seizure.

I try and talk my way through it, tell myself I've never had one and there's no reason it would happen now, that I'm not going to die where no one would find me for weeks, that if I just sleep I'll feel better.

I sometimes get this weird thing where it feels like when I'm falling asleep I forget to breathe or can't catch my breath, which wakes me up. That scares me, but I think it's anxiety because once I fall asleep I'm fine.