I often feel the same way as you do, like people don't really understand me or want to understand me and that makes you feel alone. Been there done that with not fitting in at work. In fact, I seem to always get in trouble at work but they don't fire me. Sometimes people talk about me behind my back. They think Im "crazy." I hate when you try to explain what your depression is like and people start to judge you. That makes it that much worse I don't have a therapist but the way you describe yours I think I'll save my money. I pray and talk to God. I grew up Catholic. I remember the nuns, Sacraments and rigid authority. Family is not always helpful. They don't understand. Vent away my friend. I truly appreciate the kind support you have always given me on this site.