i haven't looked at online porn in 86 days now. and you know I don't even miss it. I think I don't miss it because honestly it wasn't really that satisfying. I was always looking for a woman that looks like my wife and of course I couldn't ever find it. I have started feeling clearer in the mind because im focusing on whats really important and that's my wife and kids. its funny because now I thrive on the hugs and kisses my wife gives me. sounds mushy I know but its such a good feeling I haven't felt in so long. now when my wife touches my hand or my back or kisses me back, just a simple peck on the lips its intoxicating. I know I have a long long way to go until I am free of my addiction but all I can do is focus on the day im living in and live for the day
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