So, I had pretty much given up on love. But I kept my OkCupid and Plenty of Fish accounts active, because in the back of my mind there was still some hope there. But I really had enough and I thought there was no one out there for me.

Then what do you know? Someone messages me. We talk laugh and chat for a while. Then he finally gives me his number and we have some great phone conversations. I didn't think much of it at first because our online messages were basically casual and were very "get to know you" type correspondences. But then when I heard his voice. WOW!

Anyway, the reason I am so nervous is that I am very self conscious. I feel very fat and ugly. What if he rejects me tomorrow? I showed him body shot pictures but what if my actual self is too fat? I know I am overanalyzing and probably panicking for nothing, but I am really scared. I can't take a rejection right now. I really can't. I am so afraid there won't be any chemistry. On his side I mean. I already know I like him. I am feeling it, but what if he doesn't?

Scared, sad and extra nervous right now. A hug would be nice!