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Originally Posted by peeps757
For the first time in probably 2 years I went almost 8 whole days with a "stable" mood. I wasn't Manic or depressed... everything was how i see what other people go through day to day... it was like i was normal. I was even sleeping at night. Like 7 hours a night. it was great. Then last night I woke up at 11 pm and i've been up since... I got maybe 2 hours of sleep. My moods are going everywhere again and I don't know where i'm going to end up next with them. I started dissociating again. I know some of this is from lack of sleep, but i was doing so good. I did what I said I wouldn't and I got my hopes up... i'm just tired of doing this. I'm tired of not knowing what i'm going to be like next, and I don't want to get as bad as I usually do.. it's exhausting and seems like i'm fighting a battle that can't be won.
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Don't you have anything to control your sleep? I've always found that controlling my sleep / wake cycle is of the utmost importance to my stability. If I let it get out of whack I'm screwed, so I keep around upwards of eight different kinds of sleeping pills and go pills so that I can tightly regulate my sleep / wake schedule.
The extreme moods will go away if you can keep yourself on a rigid sleep / wake cycle. Set a bedtime, say 11pm, and take or drink whatever you need to to make sure your head is on the pillow by 11pm. If you do this enough times your body adjusts and it gets easier, eventually you'll be able to back off the sleep meds entirely.
My morning starts in the same manner, with ritalin, nuvigil, and an expresso to keep me from napping. I also have meds (prednisone) that make me sleep only half a night, they come in handy for resetting the cycle and adjustments.
A well regulated sleep / wake cycle should be the foundation of your treatment plan.