When I'm in a stable mood I don't think about it that much. When I got first diagnosed it was in my head a lot. It took awhile for the shock of everything to go away.

When I'm super depressed I start to think about it a little bit. But I mainly just think about how I wish I didn't have to deal with the pain anymore

Then there's times where I think I'm completely f**ked up, crazy, and I start to think about it a little

So over all not that much. It's mostly just thinking of how I'm tired of dealing with everything.

Depends on my state of mind as well I guess. That and when I take my meds (Like others have said haha)