There is nothing wrong with you! You are coping with emotional pain the best way you now how. The human brain is an amazing thing. If you can't find the source of your feelings, it's probably because your brain thinks it's too dangerous for you to know. Hang in there and try to be patient with yourself. You're not "weak" or "lazy". You're strong. Try to feel that strength and know that, as the saying goes, this too shall pass.