In my last thread I wrote that I have the symptoms of OCD, but I'm too scared and embarassed to talk about it with my parents and with a therapist (but expecially with my parents). I didn't talk yet, and I'm thinking if it's worth that I do it.
The fact is that I've already improved a lot alone. I had religious obsessions that caused me much anxiety and made me feel obliged to touch certain objects and to say certain things in my mind (prayers and similar things); now, since I began trying to rexist to these compulsions (more or less one year and a half ago) I still have obsessions, but less often, I'm more able to think that it's not my fault and I can avoid the compulsons most of the time (not always).
My other big problem was the need to do things several times, till I hadn't done them 'perfectly'...for example enter in a room several times, cancel and write a word several times, read again also if I have already understood the meaning. Now, with some 'exercise', I feel less often these needs (but sometimes I still have them) and I'm more able to rexist (exept for reading again...I still do it quite often).
What didn't improve is my need to repeat my prayers since I haven't said them 'perfectly' and some twetches, but I don't know if these are related to OCD.
So, I improved a lot alone, but not completely. I wanted to ask: is it possible that we arrive to the point in which we don't have obsessive thoughts and the need to do compulsions anymore? Or is it possible that I arrived to the maximum point that I can reach and I have to accept the fact that some symptoms will always remain?
I ask it because for me it would be VERY difficult to say these thing in real life (I felt a bit anxious also at the idea to write here, also if I know that you understand me)...I don't want to force myself to do this embarassing thing, to make my parents worry, to make them waste time and money for my therapy and to waste also my time if I can't improve anymore.
I can survive also with the symptoms that I still have...compared to what I had in the past this seems me nothing. But I'd like that I could talk about it...if I have to say the truth, it's expecially because I'd like to have the satisfaction to have won the embarassment and because I want to know 'officially' if I have OCD or not (also if I'm almost sure) and if I can say that I'm recovered or not. But I don't know if it's a good idea to go to see a therapist only for this reason, if therapy can't make me improve.
Sorry if this thread is so long and thanks to who wants to read it.