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Sunrise, we discussed this at length and she said its a fine line she walks as she has to try to determine if the symptoms are under control enough while still validating the pain I try to articulate. She said I am the best monitor of my symptoms and i need to be more clear with myself and her on "how" i am doing.

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Talulah, that's great! I think you have been feeling ready to work on some of this stuff and it sounds like your T is ready to trust you on whether you are ready or not. Yay!

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She knows my boundaries are askew and she treads a bit lightly I think. She seemed more 'powerful' or confident, almost to the tip of a bit more stern with me this time like she needs to impose on my boundaries a bit for me to evolve. I think she's trying to still feel out my comfort zone.

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That's really interesting. How do T's learn what our boundaries are? Sometimes it's hard for us to articulate that, and we may not know ourselves. So they need to have ways of probing. A couple of sessions ago, near the end of the session, my T pushed and pushed and pushed, really aggressively (for him). He's never really done that before. He pushed me so hard I was lobbing defenses his way right and left until finally all I could come up with was repeating "I'm scared. I'm scared. I'm scared." Then he immediately quit, and I was exhausted but OK. Now after reading what you wrote, I think maybe he was looking for my boundaries. Guess he found them. And we know more now, and we move on.

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She used some wonderful analogies that were heartwarming and made me feel really cared for and that helped quite a bit.

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Hmmmm, that sounds great.

Talulah, it sounds like things are going great for you in therapy. Your big risk paid off. (((hugs))) I learn so much from reading people's "therapy stories" here on the board. Thanks for sharing.