I could have written your first paragraph. Then i messaged someone on okcupid and we hit it off straight away. We skyped and emailed and talked and she even wrote me letters (which i loved- thanks darling). Whats stopping you from skyping just to get over that initial embarassment. My self esteem and body image ain't great but you are what you are. If the other person doesn't like it then that's their problem. I would say there has be some initial attraction but relationships are much more than just appearance and those that are based on that only won't last long. People like all sorts of body types and shapes and naked we all have the same bits. Think of all the lovely ladies with voluptuous bodies in pre-raphelite art you can see that the idea of the perfect woman changes. Who says you're fat and ugly . ONLY YOU. You are judging yourself and that is crazy. Don't be scared, sad or nervous. Be excited, happy and confidant. If you have come this far i'm sure that everything will be fine. Enjoy it. Let him do the manly thing and spoil you rotten. Enjoy each others company and the nerves will disappear and you will wonder why you were so worried. Have a great time.