I'm supposed to call my pdoc. Was supposed to yesterday, but was kindda irritated when I called that he doesn't have a voicemail so I didn't leave a message. I'm trying to distract myself and wear myself out so I can "overcome" these thoughts. Its not working. I've been exercising for about an hour solid now and it hasn't done diddly. I should have went to work at least then I'd have other stuff to do. I can leave a message with the receptionist I guess to have pdoc call me back. I don't ready want to cause i'm afraid they'll ask me for details and I don't want that. Grrrrrrrr. Why can't this just go away?

Tig