Hi all,

i've so far had terrible luck with SSRI's..
I've been on:
Fluoxetine/Prozac @ 40mg for 6months,
Sertraline/Zoloft @ 100mg for 2/3 ~ months.

^i had pretty extreme reactions to both..
But in hind sight, Prozac did help my BDD,,, whilst sending me pretty crazy.
And Sertraline, just depressed me (emotional emptiness), didn't really help with my OCD, And sent me a bit crazy to boot as well.

Now, i'm not too keen on trying any of the other SSRIs..
I hate the: 'Wait 2+ months to see if it's going to work, then start again' ethic.
For this reason i tried Mirtazapine, and it helped my depression seriously quickly, but it also completely knocked me out.. -
i was unconscious for most of the day…. (literally 16-18hours sleep a day.)
So i had to stop Mirtazapine.

So seeing as Prozac is indicated as the best for Body Dysmorphic Disorder,,
And i kind of remember it helping……(it was five years ago, pre-therapy… kind'ove foggy)
then maybe i should give it one more try…..

i don't know,
I'm already on diazepam 12mg a day, so that's a plus… should help with the going on and off,,
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It's just; i think my BDD has gone haywire, and i'm seriously not coping with it very well… at all.
But i am so, weary of what the SSRI's did to me,, they really drove me a bit - weird,,

I know this is something i've got to decide myself..
but seeing as i'm not in touch with a psychiatrist, i don't really have anyone 'in the know' who could suggest what they thought was appropriate..
I've got a couple more sessions with my psychotherapist - But she can't advise me on medication,, it seems to be a rule that only psychiatrists can, or G.Ps…
so that leaves my only option: G.Ps.. - who prescribed me the SSRI's in the past… but weren't very forthcoming about possible side effects,
and didn't believe me nor help when there were.

I really would, in an ideal world; taper off diazepam - and tackle things using my CBT and, probably more therapy; {sadly with a different therapist.}
But i don't know if i can get over this..
I've got BDD, really bad.

Thing is,,, i don't think i could fix my Body Dysmorphic Disorder in 12~ sessions with a psychotherapist.. - and that's all i would be able to afford,, absolute maximum.
So i need to do something to help me cope, as i can't stand still being in this situation…

Cheers,
Circles5