thankyou guys i love you so much. i feel really sad today. worked up about the the whole 18th thing, went fine. maybe just relieved idk.

so need to feel loved at the moment by tony really, just dont. i have you and i have my friends and kids, just doesnt seem to settle me. i want to be needed and held and shown real love and i feel stupid and weak saying it. i just wish my husband was more attentive and strong.

i was always the strong one, now i'm weak he just doesn't have a clue how to deal with this. kerry xoxoxoxo