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Originally Posted by spychic
i did lots of sobbing today. and last night while on the phone with my mom. my dog bodhi who is 12.7 months old licks my face profusely usually and lets me fall asleep on him. my little girl who is 2 yo just tries to engage me in play or she'll snuggle up and force me to love on her and pet her. she puts her paw on my face to get me to wake up after i have slept all day. but still, i couldn't generate enough energy to walk them. they just got to hang out in the yard a few times during the day. but it's not fair that i cannot be the companion they deserve when i feel this way.
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I've felt the same when I finally slept at 1 or 2am but couldn't get up until after noon the next day...so guilty. I'd force myself up so I could take my baby outside to relieve himself, (silent prayer of gratitude he didn't have an 'accident' and his kidneys didn't explode).....day after day after day after day...always the same. Because of him, I actually did get up. If not for him, I'd have been in bed forever.
They understand. I know it. Trust me, yours understands too. Pets (in my experience dogs, but I'm sure it is with other animals that love a human) know when their human is hurting, and they don't judge or demand...they accept (because they always live in the 'here and now') that things are not good for their human and they do what they can to help (licking faces, burying their nose in the place between neck and shoulder...nudging their person to get up). They have no consideration of what happened yesterday. They only know 'today' and what is happening with their person, today.
I'm so much better now, but even writing this, makes me cry a bit and my baby came over, tail wagging, eyes wide and questioning. So I sit up...wipe tears away quickly, and pat his head.
Humans...the only ones who pretend they're okay, even if the are not, to spare another pain.
You're fortunate....don't feel guilty. If they could talk, they would tell you they don't understand such a concept. To them...love is caring....and they just care....no matter the event, the time, the date, the subject. They just care.