I can understand your grief over this. It is hard to let go of a beloved therapist, especially when you know you want see them again. I would suggest grief counseling as a way to get help through this. It will get easier but it will take a while. You might want to start a unsent letter of the things you would like to tell her if you could and get some of the emotions out that way.
I lost a really good friend once because of one of my manic spells and crossed boundaries. He cut all contact with me. Left me reeling since I loved him dearly and felt he was my soulmate. It's still hurts sometimes but not as bad as it used to.
Good luck to you.
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Bipolar I, Depression, GAD Meds: Zoloft, Zyprexa, Ritalin
"Each morning we are born again. What we do today is what matters most." -Buddha
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