Hey BeaFlower, I understand how hard it is to first come out about the battles you have faced, I know it was the hardest step for me. I don't regret it though my parents were very understanding about it when I first talked to a doctor about it and have been supportive of me since. I can't say whether it will be helpful for you or not, but I know that my pdoc put me on Prozac when I told him about my OCD, and its worked miracles for me. I too used to have alot of religious obsessions, particularly with blasphemous thoughts. Medications aren't a cure, but atleast for me they have really helped me manage my OCD. Wishing you the best.