T, I can't wait to see you tomorrow! God, I hate this situation and I need some insight. I was thinking of texting you all evening but I think there's nothing to be done tonight anyway. But really, you need to help me with this, it drives me crazy!! I don't understand why people act that way, even with all understanding in the world it doesn't make sense. It's morbid and painful and lacks respect. And what the heck do they want?? I wish you were here right now and could sort it all out. Because I don't have enough energy to do it myself. It frustrates me that in my head I have all the right answers but I am too tired to discuss them. So I am so relieved you will be here tomorrow. A