Everything I tell him I like, he withholds. He says he's been consistent, and he has in many ways, but that's not totally true.

There are lots of transferences going on, but this doesn't seem to be part of that. The only other time I can think of anyone trying to 'break my spirit' was in military boot camp.

I mean this in the context with my resistances and defenses. Last week it felt like he was trying to tame me, as in my impulses that felt so freeing and spontaneous. He admitted this half-heartedly; said something about coming down closer to the ground.

Can anyone relate to this, or could this be another irrational thought?
It's getting frustrating. I don't want to be reduced to hopelessness and despair. I've been there before. I am feel so much better lately--why can't I just enjoy life while I can?