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Old Apr 29, 2014, 08:39 PM
anon20141119
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Originally Posted by BlueWeepingRose View Post
I've never told her how it made me feel: anytime I try she tries to avoid the subject all together which ends up hurting me further. My mother has always been cold and distant towards me, but she's close with my two brothers which hurts a lot. It keeps making me feel like I'm not part of the family. So I usually hide myself in my room cause I don't feel wanted or cared about.
I know EXACTLY how that goes. She is closest to my sister but treats myself & my brother like COMPLETE *****. It's unbelievable, the obvious difference in how she treats us and how she treats her. There's NO excuse for that type of behavior towards your own children. When I was really young it tore me up inside & was evident to everyone outside our house. I even had a school guidance counselor explicitly say "You know, there are different types of abuse." Mind you I didn't even have a close relationship with this counselor. I strictly talked to her about my progress in school & she STILL knew.

I quickly learned to keep everything about my life outside the house & my feelings to myself. Not like I had a life; that's a long ***** story for another time though. Filled with atrocities but still. Now here I am, in my early 20's. Ever since before I was a pre-teen I knew it would always be this way. Since my late teens my mother has always said 'why can't we be friends?' Yet this is the same person, crying to be close, but when I try to be she still keeps her distance & treats me even worse.

The hurt that comes with this, she says doesn't understand. It's not that: she pretends not to. There are countless things she has done to me that people call 'small' issues which sje has NEVER done to my sister. No issue is too small when it affects your relationship.

You didn't mention the details here but if you ever want to talk I welcome you to PM me.

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