Thank you for your insight. She really does want a baby soon. She isn't really the attention seeking type. I think it might be a related to other problems in her life. She's had some bad boyfriends in the last years, and we've had some bad fights as well. But we've been able to work through our problems together. Her relationship with her mom has been kind of hard lately too. Her mom has turned to alcohol a lot lately and she said she doesn't feel like she can trust her anymore. She told me she feels as if she has some abandonment issues and I try to show her that I'm here for her and that I truly love her and support her. I think she just wants a chance to give a baby the love that she feels she doesn't receive. And to answer your question healingme4me, she is the only girl I've ever been with that I truly feel a connection with. Ik I can trust her not to judge me, and yeah her dating another guy while I was away did cause some really big fights between us. But we've both realized we need each other. She's the only girl that makes me truly happy.