Dear T,

Still have that weird "missing you"-neediness-creeping-me-out thing /:

Today I had some time where I felt almost in touch with my feelings, though. Or part of my feeling state. It was so touch and go and I was trying to stay with it and I did for a bit. But I noticed I had no words for what was happening. I didn't know what I was feeling exactly, but more so than that, I just didn't know the why of it. I imagined myself being able to emote in front of you and not being able to explain what was going on. You would want to know and I wouldn't know, so I'd shut off.

Please tell me how can you help me with this???