Was reflecting back on my previous experiences with my therapist - and so many things were red flags. She commented on how much make up (apparently) I used to wear, and that could have been overcompensation for me "hiding" my sexuality of being gay (just because I am feminine? ) Though she used to constantly tell me how beautiful I was - after that, I did end up telling her I did not have a lack of self-esteem and it was confusing for me to hear her say that due to my feelings towards her. But at the same time, she held me at arms length and said I couldn't become dependent on her.
I still feel discouraged with her termination towards me - and not being able to contact her again because it is 'innappropriate'.

Ugggh... sorry for the rant - just feeling quite sad Hopefully a new T will help me a lot better!