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AmysJourney · Apr 30, 2014, 07:14 AM

"Day #7

So today is a really special day for me. A young woman I met on the online forum is flying in from Canada to see me for a couple of days. She has really captured my heart. She is very smart - gosh, she uses bigger words than I can understand sometimes. Something she wrote about logic made my head twist and it seriously made me question whether I am really as smart as I think I am She has a very special heart and I can't wait to spend some time with her in the next couple of days and get to know her better. Ha, she will even meet my Hero-therapist as she will arrive right in the middle of my session.
I feel very humble that she is making that journey all the way, just to spend two days to visit with me. And I hope she'll like me despite looking like a zombie without hair

I cried so much yesterday, reading all the emails that went around. But listen guys, this is not a time for eulogies yet, haha!! I am still here, you know?!
No, seriously I am overwhelmed by your kindness and I love to read all the stories. Some of them surprised me because, to be honest, most of the time I am not aware of doing something special or saying something special at all.
I just open my mouth and what comes out, comes out. And when I see someone in need, I don't really think too much, I just do what feels right.

I think I have a really strange heart. It usually has it's own will, and it almost always wins over my head. Sometimes that makes me very vulnerable and puts me at risk, but more times than not, it kinda works out for the best.

I always thought, and to this day I am still convinced, that it is compassion that heals us. Having compassion for ourselves and having compassion for others is a powerful, wonderful healer.
Many people have a distorted image of themselves. Lies of the past have convinced them that they are not good enough, not worthy of being loved or cared for. But that is almost never the truth. It hurts me when people think of themselves as despicable or awful.
The truth is, those who are really despicable and awful would never say that about themselves.

So I think my main passion has always been to show people as much love and compassion as possible because I knew how it felt not to be loved at all and cast aside. I think that's what made me who I am now.

Thank you everyone for showing me a little (or a lot) that I had some small part in your life. It makes me feel like my life was not in vain and shows me, I have always tried my best.

With a lot of love,
Amelia"