I know how u feel. My older sister was the princess everything she did was golden. My twin who was 2min younger was terminally ill and the baby so she was precious. Then there wa me. Different. Always wanted my haircut, always stuck in hand me downs that I hated. I was child genius bored in school but when my parents were approached to put me in a special school and skip grades my parents said no. The chose my special hell intellectually. Fate chose my hell to be born in a family that was ultra conservative and the middle child(me) was treated as the outcast.

My father took particular pleasure in the hell he forced me into. He's an abusive alcoholic, and later on was charged and convicted of being a pedophile. Yet still to this day with my older sister married and with family, and my twin dead, my mother chose that *** hole father of mine over me. She still tries for a relationship. I've told her I tried to be there for her for 26yrs of my life, she shat on that. Now I will never be there for her again. She dug her grave choosing that filth over me, she lay in it.