Thanks for answering bigmike! I'm happy that therapy have been helpful for you, but I'd prefer not to take meds if possible. I neither know if really want to do a therapy with a psychologist, but if it can help me maybe it's worth doing it...I really don't know . It would be difficult to talk with a therapist, but expecially with my parents. Probably they would be understanding too, but they would be surly very worried, and I don't want...And I don't know if I'd be able to talk aloud about these things...it's so embarassing! I shouldn't be embarassed, I know, but I am. I'm neither able to imagine in my mind to start a conversation about this...I don't know how I could do it. Sometimes I feel almost ready, but it doesn't last long. Expecially I wouldn't want that my dad knows it...I wish that I could say it only to my mum, but it's impossible, she wouldn't agree.
Can I ask how did you talk with your parents for the first time, if you want to say? You can PM me if you want. Thanks again for answering