Thank you for all you're replies and I agree with the advice that I've been given. Yes she interacts with me but we don't talk as often I would like too. I'm sorry to hear what others have been through, nobody deserves that kind of pain in their life. It makes me see that I'm not the only one going through this kind of thing. Only wish I could help everyone but I know I also have to help myself in the process as well. I talk to my mother but lately I haven't gone to her about my feelings cause in the end I only end up crying and feeling badly about myself. Appreciate all what you've said to me and I'll be more than happy to talk to any of you if you wish too!