i cut
i cut much worse than i have ever cut before.
i blame it on my boyfriend; telling me he likes my best mate.
for a girl with a huge self confidence issue, it hurt A LOT
being told the guy your in love with want's your best friend.
yet he tells me he doesn't want her, he just likes her.
tbh in my eyes. it's the same thing

he swears blind to me he would never do anything with her, and tbh i'm unsure on whether i can trust him or not.

he promises me everyday he loves me and me only
yet but i can't help but feel doubt in the back of my mind
i keep thinking that he's thinking of her
when he asked me to marry him.
i couldn't wait to say yes.
but now i'm thinking it's a big mistake.
i run my fingers over my cuts
and they are so much worse than they normally are

he has made me feel so much worse than i have before.
i just can't handle it
i took an overdose because of him not three weeks ago
yet i don't want to leave him
i love him too much