Yes ((TomRiddle)), what you are describing is exactly what PTSD does. I don't doubt that your home environment triggers you either, there is a drive with people who struggle with PTSD to "avoid" any reminders, so it really must be difficult for you because how you are still living where emotional abuse took place. I have the same challenge myself and so I do understand how you struggle.

Have you reached out for therapy? It is important that you "tell your story" and talk about whatever challenges you as much as you need to so you can finally get the resolve you need. Validation is very important as well as having someone help you process all the parts you have in your brain that you need to resolve. I understand how your mother may be finally getting help, but that isn't going to change the fact that you were still traumatized and you need help for yourself too. You need to have someone else in your head helping you too. I can't express enough how important this is, because you can make gains on this challenge.

((Hugs))
OE