Hello Kumar: None of us can tell you what your sexual orientation is. You need to seek out a qualified, experienced gender therapist if such is available where you live. I'm not telling you anything you don't know by saying that this is all very complicated. It's going to take time to sort through it all. The one thing I would suggest to you, though, is that it is important to resolve the feelings you have. Based on my experience, I would say that all of this will not go away by itself. If left unresolved, it will only result in more misery. My best wishes to you...