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Originally Posted by Open Eyes
Yes ((TomRiddle)), what you are describing is exactly what PTSD does. I don't doubt that your home environment triggers you either, there is a drive with people who struggle with PTSD to "avoid" any reminders, so it really must be difficult for you because how you are still living where emotional abuse took place. I have the same challenge myself and so I do understand how you struggle.
Have you reached out for therapy? It is important that you "tell your story" and talk about whatever challenges you as much as you need to so you can finally get the resolve you need. Validation is very important as well as having someone help you process all the parts you have in your brain that you need to resolve. I understand how your mother may be finally getting help, but that isn't going to change the fact that you were still traumatized and you need help for yourself too. You need to have someone else in your head helping you too. I can't express enough how important this is, because you can make gains on this challenge.
((Hugs))
OE
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Thanks Open Eyes, I'm glad to have some confirmation I have the right idea. I am not in therapy but a couple years ago I was seeing someone weekly for several months for anxiety and depression, but no one ever called it "therapy".
Last year I was doing really well, I had opened up to my family and I remember for much of that time I felt much better and some of my "feelings" came back to me and I even worked on projects (hobbies) and felt the enjoyment in it. Then late last year school got really stressful and I stopped exercising and I shut down again and since then I've been like this again. (Not that you asked for my life story
)
Is it normal that when I get stuck in my head it is like an alternate reality playing in there? Does this still sound like PTSD? Whenever I read anything about PTSD I always see things about flashbacks and I don't have any of those. In the later years my mother was
always being horrible and I don't remember anything specific about any of it, I just remember that it happened.
Edit: And theres not always things playing in my mind, sometimes I'm just not completely in touch with reality.