((Teacake)),

How you are feeling? Well, that is how many vets feel that struggle with PTSD or see so much reality that when they come back home people around them tend to aggravate them, seem rather dumb too.

Yes, you "are" very sensitive and you "do" see more, so much more than the average person who can "just" go along not seeing some of the "big" realities.

Yes, emotions and empathy are both very magnified with PTSD too. Yes, the awareness is also "magnified". And yes, it is very frustrating and often lonely too. It is like the person who struggles is "very wide awake" and other people are just half asleep at best.

You are not the only one challenged this way though. I think you were expecting so much more when you went to that treatment facility, and what you saw was "half asleep people walking around" instead of having someone there that was actually "wide awake with genuine knowledge about how you are challenged".

I get very frustrated too Teacake, knowing what I know now and looking back on how much I tried to reach out for help and said all the right red flags, and I was not heard.

I am having a really hard time right now tbh. I saw what happened, my husband also saw it too, and I developed this damn disorder because of it, I have such a hard time going outside and being around my ponies and horses, hearing my neighbors next door, knowing that THEY KNEW and they admitted it and in spite of all my efforts to do everything possible, both legally and psychologically, I WAS LET DOWN OVER AND OVER. I wish, oh god I wish I could get people to understand how crippling this is, how hard it is and how cruel it was to keep me in this for going on 7 years now. This is WRONG, this is so WRONG and unjust. I feel badly for anyone who goes through what I have been through, it is just out right cruel.

OE