I never thought I could ever forgive my dad, too.....but I finally let go of the burden of carrying all that around. Forgiving is really essential, I think towards moving on. At first, I forgave him for my sake and not his sake. Surprisingly tho, I have also finally been able to forgive for his sake as well. Wherever his soul is right now, I hope it has made him feel better in some way.

I know it is hard to forgive, but be good to yourself and try to allow that into your heart. You will be surprised at how freeing releasing that burden will be. Maybe start out like I did and forgive him for your sake. And when and if the time ever comes, perhaps you can also come to a place where you can forgive for his sake as well. It doesn't mean you have to forget....not at all....but forgiving really does help towards getting to a better place to where you can move on with your life. You deserve that.