Thanks for the encouragment guys I feel a bit better, still beating myself up over it. I also feel guilty because the house is sending me on a trip to reward my good behavior and I'm keeping this from them. I really want to go to the bronx zoo, but I feel guilty keeping this from them, so I'm torn between telling and possibly losing that, or not telling at all. I told my Therapist so I don't know why I feel the need to tell the house (My t won't tell the house anything). UGH.

My conscience sighs.