what is the point
i mean really

i find myself posting on a message board at 6.45am on a tuesday morning cos i turned on my laptop to do some stuff before work and i can't even write anything

can't get my *** out of bedhave a whole list of 'shoulds' to do

i just feel like crying and saying %#@&#! it all and not ever going to work again and sleeping and maybe drinking a few bottles of wine to stay asleep

heh what a pathetic way to be

im sorry i know people are in a lot lot lot worse state than me but i just dont even think i can be bothered anymore. today is freaking me out. i wish something would happen so i dont need to go to work

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