I thought this whole thing was a bad idea to begin with - now that has been proven!
I said right from the word go - I ABSOLUTELY DO NOT want anyone treating me any different in any situation than they did before starting to do anything, no drugs that will break anything else - or are controlled to the point that you have to actually see it when a urine sample is needed (I ABSOLUTELY refuse pain medication despite constant plea from everyone and hurting a lot because of that - nerve blocks are also out because that messes with other things functioning properly), and I definitely D NOT want to get involved with anything that is not going to be 100% confidential (for the eyes of those DIRECTLY treating me, NEVER police, weapons dealers, employers, exc. -and I mean not even any court-order from anywhere that could reverse that regardless of the case r situation). So, hat have I ended up with so far?

I'll tell you ---

A bunch of drugs I just put n the garbage because of breaking other things. Every time I end up in a hospital ER for any reason, acting like they think I am going to try to hurt myself (that causes me to immediately not care why I am there in the first place - I just want you to go away and leave me alone then - and WILL lie or downplay things to make that happen), while nothing that I can actually point to and say haw haw, I sure sems like local police know something, when those other drugs were regected, attempts to gave me something that someone figures you need to be watched like a hawk with (if it's that dangerous, I for sure don't want it, even if it is perfect otherwise), and wanting even more info, but will not guarantee that there is no situation where anyone other than doctors working for me will ever see it, so that is not going to happen.

Basically, anything that is going to cause problems with anything else, have me being watched any closer than I was before anything was done, take away any amount of privacy in any situation, or cause anyone t act any different towards me in any situation, and I want NOTHING to do with it!

NOW, if those few things can not be strictly followed, then forget it - just leave me alone in that case - it's way less stressful, and I really am more comfortable if I KNOW no one can possibly find out anything unless I tell them -and then if I do trust enough to tell it, it's no longer a true secret! - Well, then -

YOU ARE ALL FIRED!!!!!!