Dear Him,

I want to start off by saying how much you mean to me. I have never loved anyone the way that I love you. I know that I'm not perfect, and I don't try to be, but am I really as bad as you make me feel? Do I deserve this?

I have spent so many months trying to figure out what's wrong with YOU,so I can make excuses for the way that you treat me. That I forgot about myself. What's my problem? Anyone who stays with a man like you has to have something wrong with them.

Maybe it's you!! you have made me believe it's me. I'm the problem, I make you call me names, I provoke you to argue with me, because I'm so stupid. Your the man right??? What you say goes, a sensitive, kind hearted woman shouldn't burden herself with trying to make decisions because I'm not competent enough to handle things such as what kind of drink I want.

I feel stuck, I love you, but I know I shouldn't. I forgive you, but I know you don't deserve it. Why do you take advantage of my kindness, use my emotions for your gain. Only to toss me aside when I'm not longer useful, or you find something better to occupy you.

Do you see how much you hurt me, do you even care? How is it you can love me and hate me at the same time. I wish that this cycle would end, I wish I could let you go.