Sometimes I wonder what is bipolar and what is just situational and what is just me. I had a few weeks of supermotivation and to coincide with it, I was in dreamland with the man I'm in love with.

Things seem to be coming back down to middle. I feel anxious and the fear is creeping back in. I'm fighting it willfully though. I just don't know what is normal?!

I have a job again but its like the ones i had before and not what I want to be doing. I just need money, but the hours are high and it feels like a trap?? I'm ramping up to the therapeutic lamictal dose. I think I start 100 mg tomorrow. Is that killing it? I hate the depressions but I want to feel inspired again!