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Originally Posted by secretwhisper
I just can't get it right. I can't push down enough on the blade. I think I am pushing down enough but I am left with the same disappointing results. I guess the next step would be sharper blades. I just don't know where I can go for them... I'm in pain, there just isn't enough blood.
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please don't do that. please be careful. This may be triggering by the way, but I was there once. I felt that way. I bought brand new sharp razors. pushed down hard. cut to the bone. through four tendons. 7 stitches. the doctors said it was amazing I could move my hand, that I didn't cause permanent damage. I had to wear a splint for a two weeks.
it was terrifying. as soon as I saw what I had done, I was scared to death. I didn't know how I could do that to myself. I thought I might die. That was what I had wanted, but as soon as what I always daydreamt about happened it was horrible. you think that's what you want or need, and I know the feeling. but the reality is a nightmare.