Hello TRM.
I am sorry you are having such a hard time with your mental health system, but there are others that really care about your welfare at Psych central and at home as well, so maybe that can be enough for the moment to make you change your mind and take your medication. You cannot put all concentrative efforts into the system you should just concentrate on feeling better at this time. I hope things get better for you soon. Take care Soidhonia