I've always felt depressed for at least a few weeks and considered seeking therapy but a few days or weeks later I felt fine and wondered why I ever considered therapy in the first place. like I was never depressed in the first place. I became inspired to work harder in school and to clean around the house and go to more parties and to be more social even with people I didn't know. even in the last year I've had times where I become more social as well as sexual. I'm completely in love with my bf of 2 years and want to marry him but there have been times where I've doubted want to be with him and think I have missed out on sleeping around and being adventurous. Before I bought a car I've even rented a car and driven 5 hours to sleep with a guy and a few of his friends. What a waste of money. just like the time I had sex with a guy on the greyhound bus who I was completely attracted to just because I could and I was feeling sexual. the worst feeling of all is the one I have now- feeling depressed like I want to break down and cry and yet I have felt extremely agitated and have thrown punches or kicked without a single thought. not my normal lay in bed and sleep of watch tv depression. this happens every few months. I just had an appt with my psychiatrist own what to do. maybe I should just gIve unto a. mood stabilizer. just felt like venting.