Have talked to pdoc the past 2 evenings. He said there isn't really anything to do med wise other than to use therapy to work through these feelings. I hate that everything med wise takes so much time. He mentioned hospital if my safety becomes a concern, but he agreed that should be a last resort. He's also making room in his schedule to see me one last time at the end of may before he leaves and I get a new pdoc. I've reached the I don't care about life point. I want to just sleep so that I don't have to deal with my head. I've been cold for a few days. Wish the weather would warm up and stop being so windy.

Tig