I've SI for over eight years now...But in the last few months it's gotten really, really bad. I stopped for a year last year, but now I'm cutting so deep it almost needs stitches and doesn't stop bleeding for ages...(a very big difference to the scratches I used to do). I've even started on my arms, which I never did, and now they're covered in scars and people ask whats wrong with me. I'm really scaring myself. I can't sleep without cutting over a cm deep, and I'm absolutely terrified...I can't tell anyone, the only one who knows is my ex boyfriend. I'm on the waiting list for a psychologist, but I don't know if I can wait that long I'm spiralling out of control and I don't trust myself. I don't want all these scars..because no one loves a girl with scars...but I don't know how else to take the pain away