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Old Mar 19, 2007, 04:43 PM
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Hi everyone.
Dunno if attachment is the same for transference or not, bit I do know transference plays out on many levels and so on. For example some feel a strong sexual attractions while others hate their t and so on.
In my experience, i have a weird attachment, nothing remotely sexual, but the desire for her to love/care for me and validate me. I become afraid to admit the attachement like pinksoil, but it becomes so unbearable I attempted a discussion about it as you probably read in the other thread.
I had to write it because it was unbearable to 'say' in person. My t was great about it, she already sensed all the things that were happening whether I admitted to them or not. She also said it was okay to be attached and to need her. She said I would progress more if I kept her in my head. She went on to say that later on in therapy i would feel the desire less and less to have her near so often. I told her i didn't believ that and she assured me all would play out and work up/out with us in therapy.

Pinksoil, I know how it feels. It's intense and vulnerable and weak, but it's okay and unless you can discuss it with your t, you will escalate until you feel crazy. try to examine all of this with t. It's ok to say....I need to see you more, or I want to see you more....

......................."See, this is what I've been talking about... It felt good to be so open with him, but now it feels so bad. The more I open up to him, the more intense the relationship becomes, the more emotionally invested I get, and the worse it feels when I need him so bad. And I hate, hate, hate, hate, needing him so bad. "...........................

I am on this area with my t as well. We have this intense session and I reveal how much I 'want' to be with her....i really try to be rational. She told me I try too hard to rationalize and just to feel it. She said it was ok and it was not weak. I leave there thinking "you stupid! how could you act like such a child and say those things!" I totally am cringing even now at my own behavior....but I don't regret it and I think that my courage is paying off and I will be getting somehwere. So, this sounds like an attachment worth exploring and although its intense and kind of weird...go with it and try to discuss as open and honestly as you can.....

((((((((((((good luck))))))))))))