Dear,

A scientist once conducted an experiment where he let some children in an open but secluded ground. He built a fence to mark a boundary. The children played all over the ground. In another experiment, the psychologist just removed the boundaries. The children somehow played closer to each other and did not spread out, even though lots of empty ground was available.

Children like boundaries. Children like security. Children often request to listen or read the same story over and over again, because they find a comfort in the familiarity of the story.

Clearly, the constant moving and uncertainty of a stable home has affected you a lot. You did not have parents who could provide you with unconditional love.

Your recurring dream of bald men and memories of being led by your friend's father may indicate sexual abuse.

Your childhood sounds really unstable and traumatic.

But the good news is, you know your problems. That's half the battle won. Now, it's time to get help for it. Please start seeing a therapist. It takes a few tries to find the right therapist. Don't see therapy as a luxury but rather a necessity, a person who would help you heal your wounds and help you live your life to the fullest.

We're here to help you in any way we can! But consulting a therapist is necessary. We all here have been wounded some way or another. A sick mind cannot cure a sick mind.

Honestly, given all the chaos in your life, you deserve a pat on your back for completing Masters. Hope you are in a happy job and hope you are no longer doing drugs.

good luck!